Sunday, June 17, 2012

Can't live with myself


http://joemygod.blogspot.com/2012/06/porn-star-erik-rhodes-dead-at-30.html


I don't pretend to know the gentleman in question, nor posess any great insight about the workings of the porn industry (gay or otherwise); but reading the story and the comments put me in mind of a couple of quotes I find appropriate.

The first is from Dune Messiah:

"A creature who has spent his life creating one particular representation of his selfdom will die rather than become the antithesis of that representation." Scytale said.

The second is from Randy Newman:

Guilty, baby I'm guilty
And I'll be guilty the rest of my life
How come I never do what I'm supposed to do
How come nothin' that I try to do ever turns out right?

You know, you know how it is with me baby
You know, I just can't stand myself
And it takes a whole lot of medicine
For me to pretend that I'm somebody else

Trying to justify our existence by adherence to an unrealistic self image is a sisyphean labor; fit for the hall of hades perhaps, but not for the earth we know.

Combine this with a tendancy to turn people into products with a limited lifespan, and this narrative seems bound for a tragic ending.  

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